Peace at Heart

The holidays went so quickly this last year - so many good memories with kids, grandkids, and forever family. I have been under the weather this week and as I was catching up on posts I came across this one and I'm going to repost it here. This is a prophetic word that rang in my spirit strong as to what has been happening in me over the last year. Please take time to read it and ponder what it means to you in your own life. Comment or reach out to me if you want to discuss or share what the Lord is doing in you during this season of time.  Lana Vawser J a n u a r y   3   a t   1 2 : 1 4   A M    ·  I HEARD THE LORD SAY "DO NOT DESPISE THE STRETCHING, IT IS MAKING WAY FOR MY FIRE AND THE FLOOD OF MY SPIRIT" Recently I heard the Lord say "Do not despise the stretching, it is making way for My fire and the flood of My Spirit". Those words "FIRE AND FLOOD" were going over and over in my spirit as the Lord spoke. The Lord is bringing a deep stretching...

 Good Evening peeps! Andrew and I went to share our couples testimony in Kerrville and got to visit with some wonderful friends. Was a blessed time as afterwards I was able to testify about God's revelation of his love for me as he revealed where he was during times of traumatic events in my childhood. I LOVE to tell people about the "salve" encounter that I had with Jesus about 3 years ago.  I am reminded just how much he loves and how intimately he knows me - brings me to tears just writing this AND every time I share my experience it draws me even closer to the LOVE of Christ - it deepens I guess I would say. I LOVE Jesus.  I grew up in a very abusive home. I witnessed and experienced things no little girl should ever have to. From sexual abuse from those I was supposed to trust, to family violence, not ever knowing what I was going to come home to, worried about my mother constantly as she endured abuse herself, and a crippling fear that eventually anger, followed by ...

 Good Afternoon, I realized this morning, as I was sitting in Chapel at the school,  that the Lord is healing small deep holes / pockets that I have and that have remained hidden in my journey.  I had an experience a few years ago where I had an encounter with Jesus in a vision. In the vision Jesus revealed to me where he was during the sexual abuse as a child that I endured. This was a beautiful picture of Jesus holding me, as I had believed from about the age of 8 that Jesus didn't love me and quite frankly have discovered that I felt he had left me with the coping skill of disassociation and then abandoned me to fend for myself. The vision showed me otherwise and then I heard Jesus tell me that I did not need the disassociation any longer, that it has served its purpose in my life and was no longer needed. As I unpacked that vision, and all that it meant, I have come to the conclusion that the blood that Christ shed on the cross is "liquid love" and as the liquid love ...

 As I reflect on the last few weeks of my life, I am finding that my life is very good. I'm extremely grateful to have the material things that I have, a husband that I know loves me (no matter what) a house that I call home, children that are thriving in their lives, a ministry that is thriving as well. I have women that I love and minister to so they can improve their lives as well, because I have learned that I must give away what I have freely been given. A little about me: I grew up in a home where I learned that anger, drunkenness, and sex was the way you showed and received love too and from others. I didn't understand how dysfunctional this was until LONG after God saved me from a life of drunkenness, drugs, prostitution, homelessness, childlessness, hopelessness, and being lost in a world of darkness that I couldn't seem to escape from.  I decided at eight years old that Jesus must not love me because if he did I would not have to endure the abuse that I experience...