Peace at Heart

 Good Afternoon, I realized this morning, as I was sitting in Chapel at the school,  that the Lord is healing small deep holes / pockets that I have and that have remained hidden in my journey.  I had an experience a few years ago where I had an encounter with Jesus in a vision. In the vision Jesus revealed to me where he was during the sexual abuse as a child that I endured. This was a beautiful picture of Jesus holding me, as I had believed from about the age of 8 that Jesus didn't love me and quite frankly have discovered that I felt he had left me with the coping skill of disassociation and then abandoned me to fend for myself. The vision showed me otherwise and then I heard Jesus tell me that I did not need the disassociation any longer, that it has served its purpose in my life and was no longer needed. As I unpacked that vision, and all that it meant, I have come to the conclusion that the blood that Christ shed on the cross is "liquid love" and as the liquid love ...

 As I reflect on the last few weeks of my life, I am finding that my life is very good. I'm extremely grateful to have the material things that I have, a husband that I know loves me (no matter what) a house that I call home, children that are thriving in their lives, a ministry that is thriving as well. I have women that I love and minister to so they can improve their lives as well, because I have learned that I must give away what I have freely been given. A little about me: I grew up in a home where I learned that anger, drunkenness, and sex was the way you showed and received love too and from others. I didn't understand how dysfunctional this was until LONG after God saved me from a life of drunkenness, drugs, prostitution, homelessness, childlessness, hopelessness, and being lost in a world of darkness that I couldn't seem to escape from.  I decided at eight years old that Jesus must not love me because if he did I would not have to endure the abuse that I experience...